My Sobriety Isn't About My Sobriety Anymore

October 5, 2013 tiffiny

Today I woke up six month sober.

(Pause for a moment while they lyrics from The Mountain Goats, "Woke Up New," pop into my head. Even though this song is about a lover who has left, I have woke up without hangovers the last six months...)

One of the greatest things I have learned about being and staying sober is I can't make this journey ABOUT being and staying sober. I have learned to make it about ME.

I have plenty of things I can list off that I have accomplished. Honestly, if you follow me around on social media, you already know most of those things. I find new things to do in order to shove me out of my comfort zone and to tell others a story, so they can possibly take something away from it and be inspired.

There are also internal changes. My thought patterns have changed. Habits have changed. Friends have changed. I know I am not the same person I was six months ago. Not even a month ago. Being sober has opened up new questions about myself and now I am working on finding the answers.

Which is why my sobriety isn't about my sobriety anymore. It is about me. It is about living life and learning that I can free myself from myself. My life is open. Completely open. Clear-thinking has allowed me to see what is good and what needs to go in my life.

I have learned that challenging myself every day to be better than I was the day before is one of the most important things you can do for yourself. If you do that, you will grow and you will change.

'If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?' And whenever the answer has been 'No' for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something." - Steve Jobs

Do I intend to stay sober? Yes. Is my life dedicated to sobriety? No. My life is dedicated to living out my dreams and inspiring others to do the same.

Anyone who wants to contact m or talk about alcohol struggles, feel free!
email: tiffinycostello@me.com